I don't understand... why...

From the beginning... I thought I'm the one who give loyalty to my dad... but I always feel like he love my sister more than me... and it is because I don't like study... and get a bad result... My sisters has a give. They just know how to read, they like reading novel, all those words... that i can not get it right by reading one time... but they can finish the scary tick book in one or two mouth!! @@ I have to take a year... Its just not faire! When I finally have a good result like top 3th, they (my mom and dad) tarn there back on me... They always think that "well she always have a bad result some how" or even say:" oww... well done..." and no party, no gift, no happy, no nothing! and they never believe me! NEVER! So what's the point to get good result anyways! When my sister have a good result, they well just like so happy, and buy her this, that, whatever. WTF! I'm the youngest, but i feel like the elders in the family. They say never give me stress, but they just did! I wish i feel nothing... no feelings for my family... just portent they already die. Just gone. So that I can live better...have my way,my life.

Crying Shandi